“I was gonna wake you, but they told me, if I did, they’d probably insist on a goodbye fuck and they were too sore.”“Joooooshy.” A voice cal...ed out.Heather and I raised our heads to see Rachel in the archway between rooms. She was leaning against the archway, wearing a purple nighty.“What’s up Rachel?” Heather asked.“Sorry to ruin the moment, but I gotta steal Joshy.” Rachel said as she crossed her arms across her chest.Heather sat up, letting me get up.“What’s the matter?” I asked.“It’s Becky.. At first, nobody had been able to figure out what it was, until a senior detective on the verge of retirement recognized it as a dictabelt tape. The machines capable of using it had gone the way of the rotary dial phone, but Sturgess had thought to look through the inventory of the evidence locker downstairs, and sure enough, an ancient dictabelt recording machine had been found.The secretary assigned to transcribe the cassette tape had found it so disturbing that she had refused to listen to. ‘I mean, it really is you. The one that sings romantic songs, the one who dates porn stars.’ The one that I always dreamt to meet and be kissed by, she thought and smiled to him. ‘Wow, I really didn’t like how the second part sounded,’ he said and laughed out loud. ‘I don’t really date porn stars, I only date girls. Hot girls. Girls like you,’ he said, flashed a smile and looked deep into her eyes again. Her heart started beating faster as she knew what that look was leading to. He gently. 5 years it took me, but then I was done and I’ve never drunk or used since then. I then got a job in Sidney and lived there for two more years, but every place in that goddamned city just reminded me of d**gs and alcohol, so I decided to move on once again.Not one day passed that I didn’t mourn for Kelly, and I went to china, to Tibet, to meditate and forget. Back then there was war everywhere, but I didn’t care, and neither did the buddhistic monks that lived in the mountains. After I had.