Jamie's time with Anthony Sinclair was covered in detail. The many kinds of abuse were listed from the sex to the way the man called him a queer but t...en had sex with him again. After Jamie met me he explained how Anthony Sinclair wanted every detail and even the beatings for not going faster.Jamie got onto the topic of me personally. He explained how he now saw me and compared to what he had felt when under the implanted compulsions. This portion had to dovetail with what the doctor had. I’d been there about half an hour and the coffee was long gone, when I asked her why she’d invited me over. She started to explain that she’d seen how I was dressed on the previous Saturday and she’d been thinking about me ever since, she pointed to my ankles. It slowly dawned on me what was happening, my lesbian experiences with Anita was to pay a result that even at this stage I didn’t know. I told her to stand up and remove her dress and let me look at her. To my surprise she meekly obliged. I imagined his mouth sucking and licking my breasts as he rescued me and then he took to his hideaway and passionately had sex with me.Meanwhile, Fred was getting ready to leave for his trip. He was going to be gone for a couple of days, 3 weeks to be exact. As he gathered his things, I got up to kiss him goodbye."I'll call you when I get there." he said to as he got into his car.After Fred left, I went back into my bedroom and read my book. Then, the phone rang. I answered it and Chris was on. Its flattering but I feel like its just so they can get to know me better. Emotionally, Im struggling. My love life is a failure, no kids, and I need a solid man in my life to sing sweet nothings to me and simply care for me. My closest friends have their own families, their continuously growing family trees, while my trees growth seems to have ended. Ive been left so far behind, their great oak canopies have left me without a single glimpse of the beautiful sunlight. My ultimate fear is that.