‘I’ve been too busy for anyone too. This business thing, going around, making deals. I get the big bucks, but I can’t really enjoy it. I figured...in a few years I’ll be able to settle down a bit and buy a nice place, have a good time. But there’s people I work with ten or twenty years older who are still doing this.’ ‘I know what you mean. You just never find the time.’ ‘Yeah.’ ‘I have the time right now,’ she said, her voice tense, expectant. ‘What do you mean?’ ‘I just want to enjoy myself.. She'd cope."So who is the lady?" Howard gloated, taunting Cecily and enjoying her turmoil. "Tell me mam, for if you don't, I'll do worse than the Iraqis, the Koreans and the Nicaraguans rolled into one. It won't be the nails and the tree that you'll fear. It'll be the guillotine. I'll place your boobs into that brutish weapon and finish the job that Ahmed began. I'll make salami of your tits and eat them for lunch. Think about that, mam - losing your lovely beautiful tits! And me, fixing you in. "I know this is something that I shouldn't say darling, but," she hesitated and said softly."I wish you weren't my son." Why mum?"It was her turn to blush now."Because I'm in love with you." Aw, mum." I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't have said that." Didn't you always teach me to tell the truth?"She nodded. "Yes." Well, I'm going to speak the truth now mum." Okay." I've been in love with you from ever since I can remember." Oh darling." she squeezed my thigh under the table."Go and take them off. I was embarrassed and also somehow pleased that I had caught up with all the other girls in my year at school.I was relieved when the final exams drew near. I would take them and be allowed to go back to being a boy in the sixth form. Or so I thought. I did really well at my exams and applied to the sixth form. My exam results were all in the name of Jennifer. I was only able to continue my education as a girl.I turned up first day of sixth form in my new uniform. I had given in to being a girl.