I had chosen this hotel because of its proximity to the club, but I hadn’t expected to see a giant, revolving, blue deuce of clubs hanging in the ni...ht sky about three blocks from my hotel window. I waited a respectable period of time and walked back down to the desk.“Pardon me,” I said as I approached the desk, “but I noticed a giant rotating sign from the balcony of my room that looks like a blue two of clubs. What is that?”“Oh,” the desk clerk said, quickly sizing me up, “that is The Blue. " Camryn was pleading with me. "Corey, just go to my room and wait, I'll fix everything." You can't just fix me; I'm not your toy."Camryn's face was about to pop in tears. "Please Corey." Corey obeyed leaving the room with her clothes in her hand.As the door shut. Camryn scurried up to lock it. I followed crawling from under the bed. I was going to put my clothes on and leave. The lock clicked and Camryn pounced on me; I was almost all the way out."I'm ready, we can do it now." What?" We can. But, now maybe I am not ready to be free like this. Maybe I have come to like being this way.”Her eyes searched my face.“Are you getting ready to leave me too?” she asked.I shrugged. “I just don’t know what I want.”In the coming weeks we didn’t discuss this matter again.June came to the city. Leah asked if she could go with me to the downstairs gym. I took her the next morning. She immediately loved everything about it. She hefted the smaller barbells and rotated the heavy iron plates on the. “Other than wanting to strangle two of my piano students? OK.”“The twins?”“Yes. Mike, they’re totally undisciplined and Mommy and Daddy think they walk on water and are the greatest gift to music since Vladimir Horowitz. Even after a year, I think with a lesson or two, you’d play better!”“Why keep it up?” I asked.“Because I think they actually have some talent if they can learn a bit of discipline.”Deb laughed, “Not to mention the fact that their parents pay three times the going rate because.