It also meant that John, Kat and Debbiewould be back tonight. Didi went to bed early, not just because shewould be up early to start in the junior gol... program. She knew that asa girl, she would have to work harder than ever before to be consideredwith her peers.Monday was pivotal. Joanne had made it clear to John that she hadconditions that had to be adhered to. First, Joanne made it clear thatshe knew about John's indiscretion with his former assistant. She toldhim that would never, ever. Then Dad went to bed too. On the living room couch with a bottle of Gatorade and was asleep In minutes. Mom was exhausted after being up half the night and went to bed herself. I may as well have been alone. I liked it that way.I watched TV in the den until 4 o'clock, and then went to my room to nap. I hadn't thought about it, but I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. I was surprised when Mom woke me up at 8 o'clock."Are you sick too?" she said in alarm.I sat up, dislocated and confused.. I found that I was filled with contradictory feelings. There was the peace and sense of continuity that I always feel here at the beach, the physical well-being and fulfillment from so much sex with someone I loved, but also sadness that it was all going to end, and soon. What a fool Id been to let myself get so involved with Sheila. In two days I would drive her home and then go back to my wife. I realized that from here on thered be a hole in my life. Id know what Id be missing, what I wanted. My old coaches all believed in full pad practices for the same reason and I had never found any reason to think differently than they did.After warming up, I took down a weighted foam-headed Axe from the rack, and went back to work on my footwork. Sliding into the groove, I felt my movements click. Really click.The smoothness of my strokes, increased along with the power behind my swings. The low kick combo, felt natural for the first time.Level three was a huge jump in proficiency!I kept.