That night, I cried like never before. I covered my face with pillow tightly to protect the sound. I didn’t know why I was crying so hard but I want...d to scream. I saw a black shadow near my door. He was standing there, watching me. I stood up and went to him and I kissed him. I hugged him and kissed him again. I dragged him in the bed. ‘You sure it isn’t the wine doing?’ he asked me. I rolled my eyes and replied, ‘You sure you aren’t a secret gay?’ He laughed, ‘You are about to find out.’ he. . no it was not a dream. There were 9 naked women around me. The shower was running in the bathroom. I slowly got out of bed. I had a bunch of stiff parts including the most obvious one. Naked women running around the bedroom does that to guys. There were at least two hair driers running in the bathroom (the bathroom is equipped for four people to prepare themselves at the same time, including a four person shower). Julie, still naked, came over when noticed I awoken and gave me a big hug and a. I provide him with my love and care, the submission of my body and sexual spirit, and anything else he ever needs. It's a highly unequal relationship. I am deeply in love with him. But he is a deeply violent man. He is a highly promiscuous man. When he isn't using me, he's sleeping with someone else. When he's not sleeping with someone else, he's drinking. And when he's done drinking, he's beating me. I don't mind that he is a physical abuser. Better me than someone who doesn't like it or want. Naan ulle selum pozhuthu kaiyai kuthiyil vaithu kondu irunthaal.Naan athigam kama kathaigal padika maten, kama padangal matum thaan padipen. Kama kathaigal athgiam padika maten, aanal en thangai ena kathai padithu kondu irunthaal endru padithu paarthen. Athai padikum pozhuthu en nanban arugil irunthaan, aanal naan paatu etri tharugiren endru ninaithu kondu irunthaan.Annan thangai kaamam seivathu pondru irunthathu, athai padikum pozhuthe muthalil manam pathariyathu, aanal naan athai modi vaithu.