"You now treat everyone a little differently. You have a confidence and a mystique about you that attracts people to you. I think that the powers allo... you to be this confident and capable young man. If the powers somehow left you tomorrow, you will still be the same man you are today, just not quite so awesome." Suzie, I agree with you. Just take the other day when Bob streaked us at breakfast. When he came back into the kitchen with all three of us women sitting there, he did so with dignity. That broke the tension and they were all laughing."Shorty, did Jim and Jerry bring in those pistols from the motor pool?" They shore did and they all matched what you had receipts for. I spot checked twenty of them and the numbers matched. We now have all new pistols for our guys as soon as we can get them qualified with them. I know a retired man that is a state licensed instructor and will qualify all of us for a single fee. He travels around to all the small departments and does this for a. I thought that I'd show him. I won't wear it for him, but I would wear it for myself. I would wear it to make myself feel good, feel desirable. Boy, did that backfire. It just made the whole situation that much more intolerable. Maybe, if I wasn't so angry, I wouldn't have been so careless. Who knows." Good point, Esther. Your irritation with John was just another factor that led to what happened. Think about that," Ben shot back.Esther just shook her head. "Anyway, that's all water under the. As soon as Ginny stopped coming, there were just thetwo of us left, myself and the other baby, a girl named Taylor.As it turned out, I was the only boy there. Even Ms. Karen's own childrenwere girls. I am still not sure why she allowed me to stay there but shedid. As a boy, Momma found out later that for the most part, Ms. Karenignored me. Pretty much she just left me to myself without interactingwith me all that often.One day I needed to have my diaper changed and Ms Karen's girls got.