I squirmed and pulled, but I didn’t stand a chance against the three girls. Then Mandy started to read from my diary, and I gave up struggling. Inst...ad, tears started to trickle down my cheeks. “Dear Diary,” she read, “I don’t know what is wrong with me. Why I’m having this thoughts when I play with myself. Ever since the fight with Jen I can’t think of anything else but of her and Naomi, holding me, tying me up, pinching and slapping me. It’s gotten so bad that I don’t dare to give myself the. Niki said my jean is kind of hurting there. Mom said that place is ver tender. It can feel good if you be naked.Ninki said can you show me if I get naked? Mom asked Niki if she really want to learn that. Ninki saidyes I like to. What done so far feel good. I want to feel good. Please teach me aunty. Mom said lets go in room it will be good on the bed.Mom started to remove Niki's cloths. When niki was naked then mom took her cloths off. Mom huged Niki and kissed her on the lips. Mom started to. After a couple of minutes we decided to go to our bedroom, so we got up at the same time. We were standing facing each other, and James was looking straight in my eyes. There was something different; I could sense it. I don’t know why I didn’t stepped back but kept standing facing him. James came closer. I felt his hand around my back, and he put his lips on mine. He kissed me. For few seconds I responded to his kiss; I kissed him back, but when I realized what I was doing, I pushed him away.. There could be no other word for it, I realised, remembering at least something of all the times he had taken me during the course of the night. I had cheated on my husband. I was an adulteress. The fact that tom had also cheated on me didn’t console me. An irresistible urge to get clean came over me, as if by removing the outer traces of my guilt I could somehow pretend it all hadn’t happened. Slowly, carefully so as not to disturb the sleeping Paul, I slipped from the bed and stood very.