In our conversation she told me her ex-husband was abusive so she and the kids left and she got a divorce. She has not dated since her divorce two yea...s ago, she has tried to date but when men learn she has two small kids that is the last time, she hears from them. It's late Saturday afternoon, and she is taking a bath. The sunlight outside the bathroom window is actually yellow; a warm, buttery color that she didn't think existed anywhere outside of novels. The water is warm as butter, too,. Please, make love to me all the way. I want you to so much.’ My fingers, while she spoke, had made sure that she was still ready for me. I lifted off the blue nightgown so that her body, long legs leading to a triangle of darkish red hair, passionate green eyes staring at me, and with an orange-crimson cloud on her pillow at the top, was completely naked to me. As my body drew up to cover hers, her knees drew up to place her legs beside and outside mine. I used my hand to bring the head of my. For better or worse, we never had children, which made the split cleaner. I had never really considered this a bad thing until this moment. But suddenly, here I was, middle-aged, single, with no children. I felt like a failure for some unknown reason. It wasn't like I had tried and failed. I didn’t want kids. Without a husband and partner, I now felt like I was this weirdo spinster that people would talk about.At the risk of leaving out a detail or two, I’ll save some time and just say that. Megan could taste the cotton candyflavored lip gloss that the cheerleader favored. She imagined that she could feelevery individual taste bud on the older girl's tongue as it explored her mouth,finally settling on massaging Megan's own. In response, she felt her own shy lipsclose and she sucked the probing appendage as if it was a popsicle, and she hadjust emerged from the Sahara.Just as she thought she could take no more, Casey suddenly stepped back. Inthe dim lighting, Megan could make out.