Mother entered the room, totally concealed in a thick bathrobe."I have to have a good talk with you young man. How could you have betrayed your mother...like this? You defiled the last thing that was good between us. I should abandon you to the state and join a Christian woman's retreat."Her plea for sympathy fell on deaf ears. I wish I could have responded with a few blasts of my own, but I was just an eleven year old kid about to turn twelve. I curled up in a fetal ball on my bed. Mother's. This was the first time I was caught jacking off. Joyce smiled at me and continue down the stairs to get what she came down for. I was afraid that she would tell my Uncle what I was doing. At the dinner that night, she just smiled at me like she had something on me.The next day, Joyce was showing me around the farm, and we ended up in the hayloft. We were sitting on a bale of hay talking.She said, "I saw you playing with your penis last night in the shower. I want to see you do it now."I. Bethany has tried and she has no clue, either.”“I think it has to do with the original basis for your relationship. You both tried so hard to keep it to fulfilling a request, but you couldn’t. And that struggle is probably what messed you up.”“Bethany and I have talked about that, and of all the things we ever came upon, that explanation probably makes the most sense.”“Her mom isn’t happy about the baby, either.”“Jesus!” I sighed. “Maybe Bethany’s mom and our mom can form their own ‘Society for. I went on to tell him that I had no idea why, after all these years, I was having so much trouble with them. He just looked at me and smiled. Myrna came out and gave us all coffee and sat back down in the swing with Carver. I waited to see what the sheriff would have to say."Jon, Bill and I have discussed a lot of this after the first shooting. As you know, we are friends, but what you don't know, is that he, Jeb and I were in the same outfit in the war. I'm like you; I adopted my daughter.