“If I thought living the rest of your life with a self-righteous motherhood complex were good for you, I’d question our direction,” he replied. ... “However,” he continued, “I have witnessed and read in your diary of a transition no man in his right mind would wish to reverse.” Doug grabbed me by the shoulders, turned me to the mirror and said: “Look at you. Your lust and passion has made you a goddess in my eyes. Don’t ever have second thoughts on enjoying Louise or that beautiful body you’ve. I laughed and turned red wondering how many people around us heard. I didn’t make eye contact with anyone. Sarah laughed a soft giggle knowing she had embarrassed me a bit, but her hand squeezed mine letting me know it was okay. When we reached her car she tossed her keys to me and said since I knew where my car was parked, I should drive and besides…with this stop and go traffic, she would only get irritated. Her car was smaller than I am used to but with her tiny frame, it seemed the. The only lines into the building seemed to be electricity and telephone. No antennas were visible and the parking lot was mostly full of pickup trucks.The meal was a welcome relief. The food was hot, full of fat, salt, and sugar. I scanned the room every few bites but no one seemed to be paying us any attention. The crowd was mixed; black, white, and even a young Asian couple, old, young, families, and two-somes.Down the road only a mile or so was a motel and we took a room on the side. I sent. Jack passed me on the stairs and looked me up and down. 'What??' I snapped at him. Jack scowled at me and stormed off to his room. I sighed and went into the kitchen. 'Hey mama, what did you want?' I asked as I poured some juice. 'Hey sweetie, your dad and I are having a weekend at the spa. Ive left food money for you and jack - dont spend it on junk! We will be back sunday night okay? You will be okay wont you?' I laughed and rolled my eyes at her. 'Mama im 18, you dont need to worry okay?.