' In those films most of them had pretty big penisand the sac sagged (guess from the hormones). I felt even more inadequatewhen I remembered having se...n those films at the peep shows (before thiswhole thing happened.)And then John (I only have to call them Sir when I talking to them.They'll never read my diary. Would they?) told the other men one night,right in front of me, "Forget the girl shit, she's a great piece of asswith the best cunt mouth I've ever known. I almost don't give a damn if. I’ve met guys like you, kind of like you anyway, and I don’t like being controlled or corralled or whatever it is you want to call it. I knew right off how you felt about me, and I also knew that if you found out about me and Nick that you’d go ballistic. He didn’t care about me and you. I mean, he got his, right? But I just couldn’t figure out how you’d react about him. Do you get it? I thought I’d somehow slip it into the conversation tonight but Nick of course had to go and blab it all, the. As she started to remove her coat, she heard behind her, "Allow me, My Lady.", and her knees went to jelly again.A little voice inside her head whispered, "You are so lost, best of luck Girl.", while she heard her own voice say, "Thank you, My Lord." Then turning, she came face to face with 'Him'."My Lady, before we begin this adventure, may I ask what you seek?" Elnore queried, while a strange expression passed over his face.Blushing furiously at being caught like a kid in a cookie jar, Altman. The only gay guys I knew I didn't like. And what they did was sick.Or at least I thought so then. Now I wonder. I started daydreaming about Mike's Dad. Wishing he were aroundmore. Liking it when he smiled at me. I even got to liking it when hehugged me. My family never hugged. But he would reach up (he's about 6',I'm 6'4") and hold me tight, and I loved it. I was kind of surprised thefirst time. But I liked it the second. And loved it the third. What I didn't like was that I began to.