“Oh yeah – that’s what I started to tell you! Without you sending Allison to that photography shop, and her discovering how much she liked takin... her clothes off for him…” she tried to object, but I went right on “…we probably would not have done that party, the hot tub thing. It was the fact that Alli found out that it wasn’t all that hard or scary – and was even kind of fun - being naked like that with strangers, basically; after that, doing the hot tub thing was her idea, totally. I had to. " Did you get fucked?" No, they didn't fuck me. That's what was so nice. I let Jill borrow my sewing machine, and when I was showing her how to use it, we were close together and couldn't resist kissing each other." Rosy explains."I can understand that," Carla says, "you two just got to know each other. You're gonna be hot for each other for a while." They were so nice, Carla. After we got high we started kissing again, but they didn't do anything until they asked me if I wanted to first. Would. Even if I was prone to taking direction and being compliant in a relationship, if I needed to for my well-being, I was capable of separating myself. That was the beginning of a realization of what being submissive, obedient, and compliant meant for me. Despite those tendencies, it was still ultimately my giving another person power over me that would keep me in that mode. If the situation wasn’t good, beneficial, and fruitful, it was within my power to take back control. In a way, that. Aur fir wahan se me jane laga. Me meri car se ja hi raha tha ki tyre puncher. Ab meri bhi fat rahi thi wahan pe kyun ki andhera ho chuka tha chamkadado ki aawaz tej hone lagi thi. Koi dikh bhi nahi raha tha. Socha ki chalo mobile se call kar lun apne dost ko par ye kya koi covrage nahi! Aur me dekh raha tha ki mobile ki light on off on off ho rahi he socha ki ku6 problem hoga to switchhed off kar ke gadi me betha aur wait kar raha tha ki koi aaye aur madad mil jayen thodi hi der hui thi jab me.