It strangely exciting me, and I went back down and sat behind the front desk, my head filled with him and what he might be doing.I dont know why I did...it, but I was was feeling horny and dirty, so I took the fuse from the video junction box to room 5, and waited for the phone to ring, and when it did my voice quivered as he spoke into it.'The video has gone down, my dear', he whispered in his impeccable English.'Can I come up and take a look'?I held my breath for his answer, 'Of course my dear,. But he didn't know so he was left to wrestle with his conscience.Priscilla was experiencing a somewhat similar turmoil although she was not cognizant of it. During the few months since she had returned to live with her family she had developed a good, old-fashioned 'crush' on her father. It was not a sexual one or at least not sexual in a way that she could have recognized. She idolized him. And her sister's assertion that he committed sin like she had with the schoolteacher was totally. It was not with anyone else. If you had not done that I would have to bear all that pain.Mum: But still.Me: Would you have preferred I be in pain or had gone to some girl who would have done that?Mum: No, especially not a girl.Me: Then there’s nothing for you to feel guilty.Mum: But I should not have enjoyed that whilst I was helping youMe: You are human, you also have desires which dad is not fulfilling so it’s natural. If dad is not able to fulfill his duty, as his son that falls upon me to. .. Eric wanted everything to be perfect and if it meant giving her an extra dose of laudanum, then so be it. He just hoped she wasn't getting addicted to it.He looked over at her thru the candlelight and admired her beauty. He was glad he was making her so happy tonight. She deserved it, he thought, he wanted her to feel like a queen. She would be his queen. He would make it so. He would make her his bride tonight.They finished their meal and he cleared everything off the table and set it all.