She shook her head. "I'm not much for grandstand plays at the last second," she said. "Besides, what's the worst that could happen if — God forbid �...� I am making a mistake? We'll get divorced somewhere down the road and I'll end up collecting a good chunk of alimony for a few years. If nothing else, it'll keep me in the states until my contract period expires." That's not what marriage is supposed to be about," Jake told her."I know," she said. "And I'm just blowing off a little steam here. More. I have so much pent-up anger towards her for denying what I know we both want and need, and want to see her suffer as I have for it.Poor little Ruthie looks like she is about to faint on the spot. I can see that I wasn't imaging the wet spot. She either peed herself just now, or more likely, knowing how much she is attracted to Peter and fantasizes to me about him, creamed herself completely. I can't keep my mind off of that image. Ruth excuses herself clumsily and darts into the bathroom,. And I would touch you, your body so soft and warm I couldn’t say no. I would kiss your shoulder and collarbone while you ran your fingers through my hair, leaning into me. Your body would call out, pleading for more of my touch, which I would gladly give. ‘I need you.’ I would hear you say. I would pick you up and carry you to the bed. Laying you down, I would move my body on top of yours, kissing you again as you unbutton my shirt. Bare, our chests would press together, I would tell you how. She was seated at the table and asked, "Annie, I have to ask yousomething, was it that obvious I was trying to impress someone when Iwent to work this morning?" Of course it was, and what's wrong with that?" she asked."I don't know, I just felt so cheap afterwards." Why would you feel cheap?" I shouldn't be trying to, you know, trying to impress some guy." Brendasaid, with embarrassment in her voice."Why shouldn't you, you're a very pretty young woman and that's whatyoung women do, impress.