Then I thought about Jim, and for the first time realized how much I wanted him. I was torn. To which one of them should I give my virginity? Dave was...the one I had always dreamed would take my cherry, but Jim was the man I was in love with now.I was dealing with this the night Jim talked about in his story when he said that he sensed that something was wrong and that I kept wandering away from him at the party. I was trying to make a decision. Should I have sex with Jim, the man I was in love. He would miss his friends and the Southern Californiabeaches. Nick was 5'8" and had a thin build. His style was very muchwhat you would expect given he enjoyed surfing and skateboarding. Hekept his blonde hair long, either loose or in a ponytail, and had a niceeven tan from all the time he spent at the beach. He had just turned 17and had been planning his summer vacation trip with his friends.Throughout his life he has been well liked by his classmates and madefriends easily. He had a few. And I imagined he wasyou – there were similarities in his lovemaking. Was it?You could be anyone I want you to be couldn’t you? The mindboggles at the seemingly endless possibilities! And when the stranger left me I came straight back to youand we fucked and it was so good and comfortable and right,you really know me, what I like and how I like to be fuckedwe were just so familiar with each other! The stranger madea date with me but he stood me up and I didn’t give a hoot! Fuckem and run I say!. .' followed by whatever it is you with to be considered normal. There are no limits, this gives you the power to control reality itself with mere words.”‘Why are you giving me this power?’ My thoughts seemed tiny in the all-encompassing nothingness that was this place. How did I speak anyway? I don’t have a mouth so, whatever, this was probably a dream anyway. And if it wasn't, this kind of power would basically make me a god, with my actions having no consequences and my words controlling.