This was symptomatic of his problems in the area of sex that he had dealt with for his whole life since entering puberty.Carl's mother had tried to ra...se him with the strict morals of her very conservative northeastern Episcopal upbringing. But his father had been an out-and-out hedonist, causing much conflict in his household, until Old Carl had finally moved out of the house and had abandoned Young Carl's shrew of a mother; but she had refused to cooperate in any form of divorce--it just was. I felt my ex hubby was born and brought up with old customs and thought he was quite backward. Later I found out that he married his childhood love. I didn’t quite bother as my career was taking off then. I worked my ways up the corporate ladder using means and ways I know best. I joined a ladies group in my colony where we used to plan parties and events in the society. An old member joined our group … she had left for the states few years back and immediately talks started about her son Amit.. She crooked her finger at him, opened the screen door of his house, and stepped inside. As if she had a spell on him, George stood up, grabbed his cane and followed her through the house to the back porch, his semi-erection flopping against his thigh."I've seen you sitting in the shadows staring at me and my roommates. I figure you masturbate back here watching me and my roomies like a dirty old man, so let’s masturbate together,” she said as she stripped off her bikini, turning the other chair. To this day, I can close my eyes and remember how my hands felt rough against your skin, like gliding over satin. The memory makes my fingers tingle in anticipation, my breath deepens as the memory takes over my consciousness and I can feel my heart start to ache from the knowledge that it is only a memory…and like a mirage in the hot desert it slowly fades away as I open my eyes with a feeling of sorrowful regret lumped in my throat. I still remember the first time you smiled at me. I was.