I wanted nothing more than to suck all their cocks, but I was too afraid to initiate anything.I have lived as a straight man all my life with many gir...friends, several wives and stepchildren, but if I had the nerve, I would have preferred to live the "queer life." I was sexual with all these women and I was a good lover, but I always had a yen for men. More than once I had to use the fantasy of sex with a man to get off with my female lovers.I started exploring my homosexuality when I was. As I climbed the stairs to take a shower Kathy was emerging from the bathroom. She dropped her towel as I got to the top of the stairs and looked at me as she stood there naked."What does this make you think of?" she asked as I got there.Several things went through my mind as a reply "Bert's pussy," I thought but I didn't say it."Something I used to want," was another.But what I actually said was "I'm not in the mood for any fucking puzzles right now," and I walked past her and into the. I remembered to check on my experiment. I got a lesson in the will and way of the forest. I found a wide, dark green glade surrounded by enormous trees that hadn't been there when I seeded that mean, bare scraggly patch of ground. The ground had dropped and a soak had formed at one edge which formed a small rivulet that ran for a few feet then dove into the forest mat. It seemed as if the woods were thicker and more robust in the direction which the water took. I smiled. The forest mind did. ”Awwwwww” the ephemeral sound of pleasure I heard filled and slightly shook the room. Tears streamed from my eyes and a sharp pain stinged the side of my cheek. My r****t took pleasure in my fear. It chuckled a little as I whimpered from another slap then my breast screamed in pain as I realized the nipples were sharply being grabbed and twisted. Another sharp sting appeared on my thighs and my body was comically lifted and a sharp sting now was forming on my butt. Another quake of a laugh.