It wasn’t our first time together, but it felt different going to her place and not mine. I swallowed, hoping I could perform again. Her perfume fil...ed my nose as we stopped before her dorm room.I had this strange feeling that I knew what would happen in there that ... I’d done this. A weird deja vu washed over me that momentarily swallowed my nervousness. Linda fumbled for her keys out of her purse.“I hope you’re not going to be mad,” she muttered.“Mad?” I frowned. An unease settled into my. Bob and I decided it was best to keep it that way.Over dinner, Dan, Greg and I got into a discussion about the problems with the Oak Brook construction job.Dan was convinced, when he heard the dimensions, that it had to have been for a circular type building. Like Greg and I, he was incredulous that the building was square. Dad, Bill and Ted (Jamie’s dad) were listening and giving their opinions. Bill, an investment banker, had an interesting comment about a ‘revolutionary’ circular building in. After which we made plans to meet after the concert for a nice dinner of my choosing. We left the restaurant after a meal that seem to make time stand still.I can barely remember the conversation or the food. But, i can still smell her perfume as if i was being held by a mother's love. I remember her eye's looking through me as if she was searching for the lies of my soul. I was hypnotized in her pressence, i did not want the night to end. I had no idea she also felt the same way. When. After dressing, I kissed the wife and kids and headed out. Finally the night had come. I was going to lose my gay cherry. I jumped into the car and headed toward Georges house. The journey seemed so short that I had no time to think of a plan of action and several times thought about turning around. If it wasn’t for the fact that I would have to find a secluded place to park for a few hours to let the time pass I probably would have gone home. I parked the car just outside Georges address..