..bottom’. I stuttered nervously. I hadn’t been fucked by a real cock for almost a year and I’ve only ever actually been fucked by 8 different g...ys in my life and none were even close to the size of this guys cock. ‘We, er, we don’t have any l...lube’, I muttered nervously. ‘And your cock is so big’, I said, looking down with awe at it. He let out a little laugh, ‘it’s ok’, he said. ‘Here,’ he said and took hold of both my hands in his, turning me around so he was behind me he pulled my hands. Things were great. As I grew older I understood more about what sex was all about and looked at them not only as parents but also my lovers. We all slept in the same bed most nights. I had my own room but didn't use it much unless I had friends over from School.I remember when I was a senior in highschool, I lost my virginity to Jack while Brenda lay beside us in bed watching. I had wanted him to fuck me like he did Brenda for a while but they kept telling me I was to young and to wait untill I. She invited me inside and asked to sit on the bed.I – ma’am, you look gorgeousShe – Thank you. You are very youngI – Maybe ma’am, but not gorgeous like you!She – ok ok. Why have you come early?I – I was so excited by your voice yesterday and so I wanted to see the beautiful face of that voice as quickly as possible ma’am. That’s why I arrived early.She – I am impressed by your flirting!I – thank you, ma’amShe – you have a girlfriend?I – no ma’am. Till now I don’t have any love feelings towards. How long? Can eternity be measured in hours? No clock. No sun, no moon. No hunger or thirst, or the red thirst that replaced it, no hair to grow. Nothing. Only me and my memories, wrapped around themselves. Only my prison.And something else. A whisper. A fragment of a whisper. Greedy for noise I follow, and something miraculous happens. I smell. Blood. Essence. Power. Do I hear, or only remember hearing? I am a fragment of thought atrophying outside space and time. I cannot perceive, and yet I.