I blinked and stood up. She knelt back on her heels to watch as I kicked off my jeans and boxers. I sat down again with my back to the wall, facing he... with my knees drawn up in front of me. The music ended and Majken lit another joint. Outside the rain fell steadily. Neither of us made any comment about my erection. ”What happened next?” she asked as she breathed out the first puff of smoke.Ester continued to work her hand up to my crotch as she kissed me. Her weight was pressing me into the. I’ve got two fucking tours in the goddamn sandbox behind me. I should be a goddamn officer!”“Well, you aren’t,” Bork snarled. “Until you are, you will treat me with fucking respect or I will have you killed, do you understand me?”Gunter’s eyes narrowed and he grimaced, his teeth bared and grinding.“I said do you fucking understand me, private?”“Yes,” Gunter growled.“Yes, fucking what?” Bork yelled.“Yes, Sergeant,” Gunter spit out finally.“Good,” Bork rumbled. “It’s not my fucking fault you’re. I mean, I'd love to work with you and Allie only and with people like Karlie. But we know I'm going to have to go outside once in a while – particularly if I want to continue eating. As your profiles rise others are going to make it a point to see what the fuss is about me. Particularly when people understand that we're together."Sarah laughed again."So who is it?" Sarah said. "You make it sound like someone is going to try to steal you away. I mean, you just heard a voice mail from a producer.. She hadn't slept with him, although she almost had. They had made out a few times, more than a few. To be honest, he didn't seem all that interested in her actually. It hurt deep down, but she knew that maybe that was just his way, cool about everything, even love.Love? Echh, love was crap. Probably she couldn't ever experience love. Maybe what she had experienced with Ryan hadn't been love either. Really, she thought, anybody can be with anybody else, it's just nature.She felt guilty about how.