He had expected her to dismiss his observation as none of his business but instead, she encouraged him to befriend Alin. She would not tell him why, y...t he could read the worry across her face. The complications of these relationships kept Porter from feeling at peace. He felt cheated, but could not comprehend any next steps.After several months on the practice floor, Porter was introduced to the library of Sky House. He learned most students were introduced to book study after six months, but. "As instructed, I gave Carlos detailed information about the time I had spent demonstrating my lack of skills to Bill Bowman. There wasn't much in it for Carlos, I knew, or for the St. Paul Saints organization, if I was separately pursuing personal goals on the team's time. Carlos Ortega, however, seemed more interested in my development as a pitcher than in the effects it might have on the ball club. That seemed a little peculiar, but gratifying.We lost our getaway game that night and stayed. You tell me, and I will be with you. You have so much weighing on you – now that you have shared it I can help. More talking, but you are slowing down, wearing out. Let me rub these shoulders that I once kissed and nibbled and admired. Connect your shoulders with my hands and know that I am here. Your face is so tight – more talking, but now let me trace your brow that I once kissed and nuzzled and stroked. Connect your face with my hands and know that I am here. Your back is so sore – more. He kept seeing his Mom standing before him, like a giant. Just as he used to see her when he was little. She kept saying that it was time for Mommies little girl to get dressed. Tom looked and looked but he couldn't see a girl anywhere. Then she had brought the bright pink dress, with the big bows, out from behind her back. She smiled as she reached for him. Tom had screamed in the dream then, but his voice was wrong. It was the shrill high scream of a little girl. A very frightened little.