The boys pulled out and just stopped for a minute. They were all right on the edge. Everyone took a sip of their drink. Everyone was sweating and j...st excited about what was to come......By now it was 10:30 at night.5 min.: Everyone took a card and the scores were added. This time it was a tie which meant the time doubled. Sammy put more weed in the incense burner. 10 min: Everyone took another card. The girls lost again. Jimmy was the big winner. Jimmy was matched with Sammy. He. I can't do it.Well, not today.I twist on my heels and make my way back to the car.I am not really 'choosing life' as life 'chooses' us - what I am really doing is choosing to postpone death as life is just death deferred or postponed.As I drive down the narrow road from Culver Down and rattle over the cattle grid another question enters my mind: Did I really seek to end my life? Or was there a twisted dimension to it, knowing that I not only had the power to end my life but the power to ruin. Maaya: What are you doing?I didn’t say anything and tried to slowly pull her towards me. She was not resisting very hard. She looked down. I lifted her chin with my one hand and brought my lips near to hers. She closed her eyes, and we kissed.My both hands were on her waist, and she kept both her hands behind my shoulder, and we kept kissing. Her eyes were closed. I slowly made her stand on my feet. We didn’t break the kiss. After 5 minutes or so, we broke the kiss and looked at each other.She. I sat there as a clueless twenty-three-year-old brunette, just hoping that things would become better. Little did I know, that the solution was walking through the door. My twenty-four-year-old roommate, standing at five foot ten, with her long blonde hair, and c-cup breasts, saw me, and knew what I was thinking. “You'll get through it, Jim,” she replied, as she sat down with me. "I gotta do something to get myself out of this funk. I can't even think straight, Stacy," I told her. As our brains.