I didn’t want him to hear, didn’t want him to know. he was up in the main house, and I knew he hoped to high hell I’d forgotten what today was. ... was nearly to the bottom of the stairs when I heard Xander say, ‘Woman, you come down here in what you think is a hush but I hear you clompin’ in them shoes a mile away. I know what you’re doin’,’ and I froze in my tracks. ‘Xander, I’m sorry,’ I muttered, as his shadow fell over me, ‘I know I said I wouldn’t but…SHE WAS OUR DAUGHTER, goddamn it!’. It is a woman’s right. I am not going to beg your Dad for a child,” my mom said, breaking down.“This is the only gift I ever want. You will not understand, because you are a boy. But just think about it. Don’t you think I deserve at-least this, after doing everything for you and your dad, my entire life,” my mom was sobbing.“I will do it, Mom! I will do it for you! But, nobody will ever know. Not even, Dad. You have to convince him it is his child,” I finally agreed to my mom’s very indecent,. Meredith looked over. "No what?" No, I'm not entering The Program," Jane said."Why not?" Meredith said. "You don't have anything to hide, do you? —The way Sajel does," she added hastily, when it looked like Jane might take offense. "I mean, yeah, we all have private parts. But, it's a new world nowadays. You can have a right to bare whatever you want." But what if you don't want to?" Jane asked."Why not," Meredith asked."I just... I don't think it's right," Jane said."Why not," Meredith said. No offense, but this stuff probably won’t be good for my hair.”As I washed her back, I deadpanned back to her, “I suppose you’re right. Look at what that crap did to my hair. I had Tom Cruise hair before I started using that brand about three months ago.”Kaleigh burst out laughing at my Tom Cruise remark, and damn near dropped the bottle of shampoo, fumbling it around before corralling it. I grabbed her around her waist to make sure she didn’t slip on the wet shower floor and pulled her back.