And she insisted that she wouldn't tell my wife if I promised never to do it again. But I was still super freaked out, and she could tell. We were now...sitting side by side on her bed, and I started to say to her how I know she will never look at me the same again. And I how I will never be able to be around her or the whole group again without feeling super uncomfortable. She assured me I was making too much out of this, and really it was no big deal. Then she shocked me when she said, "Do you. LOL, I was ready and willing and couldn’t wait to have a few cocks stuck with me and even lick some pussy too.I followed them up the road to their place and once inside, they mixed some drinks. put on some music and the party started! I was sucking these guys cock on the sofa while his wife licked my pussy. Some of the others were either on the bed in the bedroom or on their knee’s sucking cock.LOL, It was a typical nudist resort swingers party! After about 30 minutes and a few loads of cum,. I can never confess to him and destroy his deceived reality happiness. Why be Mordred and replace it with a harsher truth like my mother did to me? I don’t want him to lose his old age’s bliss with a truth that cripples and destroys. Yet he doesn’t and can never know me, the whole me. This I regret most.I don’t know if he had a secret puppet shadow, a hidden life unknown to me. My affairs may have blinded me to his. He left on business trips, went to other worlds alone, like me when driving the. I asked, hey what are you playing change it, he said I know you like this and also told that he got introduced to gay sex during his 10th std by his class mates. He is enjoying this for almost 2 years now and he knows everything about gay sex like chat rooms, groups etc.. also 2/3 months before one day when he came to terrace saw me and Ravi smooching and he came back immediately without disturbing us. But he started watching us from steps when ever we go to terrace.Further he said wants to.