This is a part of life most of your friends won't experience for years to come, the death which comes for us all.Son, don't give up on school. Don't w...llow in self pity. Mourning and grief are a natural process, so don't hold your grief back. Let it out, or it will surely make you bitter.I have been dreaming of your father, lately. The dreams started early this year. We would be in that field where we went to picnic all the time when you were little, remember? In my dream, I knew your father. Was the attraction of the taboo wearing off? Had we emptied out our curiosity? For a couple of days we barely even hung out. --- That is until one Friday evening when everything was about to change between us forever. As usual there was a dance thing going on at the youth centre. And as usual me and Karen were outside smoking, sharing a beer, quite bored. At least I was but the smile on Karen's face suggested she had something out of the ordinary on her mind. “What's on your mind K?” She. In the mean time, I took courses to fulfill my requirements and took business courses as my electives. I also had to continue my physical conditioning, because my scholarship was dependant on my making the track team.At this point in my life I had stopped growing. I was five foot eleven inches tall, and because of the muscle I had been able to build I weighed one hundred and eighty pounds. I had pushed my personal limit on the bench press to a very respectable two hundred and twenty five. No answer. I gently shook her. No response. She is gone to the world. So I embarked on what she said last night; never had been pleased. I pulled the covers off her and started giving her a massage. About 5 min into it she was moaning and started waking up. She said "good morning", I said "yes it will be". She then "asked where is your mom"? She has gone for the morning and it's just you and me. So she rolls over and grabs my cock and balls and starts sucking a gain, WOW. I played with her.