But I also knew Nicole had taken a big step, and was very close to her limit. Honestly, I'm still amazed 20 years later that I was able to get her tha... far as quickly as I did. But I needed to keep the pot simmering, to borrow a phrase. I knew that if I asked for another show, or if I tried to advance her along, I stood a good chance of her pulling back. I'm not sure when, but somehow I had developed an innate sense of how far I could push her.So I left well enough alone. In my journal entries. ’ Julia set a plate down with toast and a cup of juice for Lauren and sat across from her with a cup of coffee. ‘What’s it like when you panic Lauren? What do you hear in your mind?’ it was a stiff probing question from Julia. She paused for a moment. ‘She should know. It’s not some dirty little secret.’ ‘It changes. Mostly its white noise of thoughts that I can’t focus on one thought.’ ‘What’s in those thoughts?’ What was in those thoughts that caused the anxiety just earlier? Lauren played. Apne kisi dost ke yaha ho.3rd messge: Kuch poochna mat baad mein samjhati hun aramse, abhi tum maze karo. Aur jo boli waysa hi karna.Main message padh kar bed par baitha aur sochne laga ki kya maza? Sare maze ka khichdi banadi Neetu ne. Main Shobha ko wapas message bheja: Hello, kya hua bhabhi? Bhaiya se wayse kyu bolu? Any problem?Par Shobha ka koi message nahi aaya. Main sochne laga ki bechari Shobha bhabhi ab bhi ghar ke saaf safayi ke kaam mein hi lagi hui hogi. Par meri tension Shobha. So what happened with you and Cat? Why’d you two break up?’ ‘I really don’t know. She just came up to me this morning and told me she couldn’t take it anymore and that I had to decide whom I wanted to be with and that she wasn’t going to be made a fool of. I think a lot of it comes from the fact that she still can’t accept that you and I are just friends. I guess it’s all for the best though.’ ‘Don’t let it get you down, you’re way too cute to walk around moping! So cheer up. OK? Besides, she.