As for behaving ‘conventionally’ around visitors, don’t worry about me. If it’s just me visiting Mum, then do your thing. I want to honour and...accept the three of you as you are – I’m really looking forward to giving Auntie Al a special hug. “Sure! If I bring a boyfriend to visit, then a bit of discretion is called for perhaps. Mum, I want to be part of your experience in a way that accepts and affirms what you’re living. I don’t want to be a voyeur, but if you never have anyone wandering. Alles in ihrer Erinnerung war weich und lieblich, ein Ponyhof der Fröhlichkeit. Warum war das nicht authentisch?Es fehlte an Ecken und Kanten, an Erfahrung, hatte der Dozent gesagt und ihren Bericht über eine Bali-Reise abgelehnt. Zu typisch. Zu belletristisch. Zu gewollt, eher wie ein TUI-Reisekatalog. Sie verzog das Gesicht. So ein arroganter Arsch mit seiner Hornbrille und seinen sich überlegen fühlenden Blicken. Was bildete er sich ein?Sie stand auf und nahm ihren Entwurf vom Tisch. "Balis. She was tired after a long and grueling week at work. She was sad and lonely and her greatest wish was to get a new job somewhere, doing something entirely different from what she was doing now. Unfortunately the economy was down and getting a better job was next to impossible for her as she had no education to build on.She tried to persuade herself that maybe by going to a bar she would for once meet some nice people. Normally when she indulged herself by going out she ended up with some. You said I should touch her and I wanted to, but I decided not to because you did not feel comfortable sharing. So I just stayed with you as we watched for a while. Then we continued, watching and listening as men and women gave pleasure to each other. In a small alcove there was one woman on her hands and knees while her partner fucked her from behind and we could hear her when she said “Fuck me, fuck me, fuck my little ass”. So horny.We walked back down the corridor and now there was one room.