BACK TO CHURCHFather dickens: Please tell me. what did you mean it felt so good before. Britney: I'll tell you that right now. It starts with my stepb...other and stepfatherFLASHBACK 2( Britney house)It started off when my stepbrother wanted to feel like on how to be a cop.STEPBROTHER:Hey sis can you do me a favor.Britney: Im busySTEPBROTHER: Pleaseeee its only for a moment.Britney: Ahh fuck you annoying. fineBritney voice to priest: He brought me to his room and told me to try out these. "Ah. I have a SON again." said mum, a note of sarcasm in her voice. "I was beginning to wonder." I don't know why you bothered. You never take any interest in anything else I do." How dare you? Don't speak to me like that. I'm your mother, show some respect." Why? You're not showing me any. Talking to ME like that in front of my friend."I don't know where this was coming from. Was I suddenly discovering courage?No.It wasn't courage, it was frustration.I had had enough of her treating me like I. Let’s take care of this visit first, then I’ll explain. I need to think a bit more before we talk so I can get my thoughts in order.”“OK,” she said, a small smile forming on her face.We arrived at the churchyard and I walked directly to Birgit’s resting place. I saw no trace at all the letter I’d left there nearly three years ago for her, nor the one I’d left six months later for my unborn child. I put the flowers against the headstone. I stood silently for a minute, remembering my first true. I stared at him, maintaining the hard face, and informed him that I was going for a shower and walked off to our bedroom.I gave him the cold shoulder for a few days until I felt sorry for him moping around, things got back to normal, whatever normal was now!Two weeks later and I was missing the fun, the attention, the sex. Yes, sex with Dave was good … but!That Friday, I slipped out of work a little early and showered. It wasn’t until I was drying off when the thought of what I wanted popped.