”She grabbed his cock, “Then stay…I won’t tell. My pussy needs a good hard fuck.”“I need this job…the money for college. I wish I coul... come by again to check your meter.” Nadia smiled, “well you could leave your number so if I need my meter read again you can come on by to check it…check it really good.” He quickly wrote down his number and handed it to her. “This is a meter readers fantasy…getting a hot woman to suck him off. Fuck, nobody would believe me if I told them.”“Well you can. I guess the real reason I enjoyed it, was really something different. I was twelve feet tall here. I was bigger. I was more powerful. I had more control.That was before. This was right now. I felt small. I was sitting here watching, in my opinion, the greatest person in the world. She looked so tiny, so frail, that was as she was sobbing. I wanted to comfort her. I should comfort her. I wanted to be the one she looked up to, the only one. As I watched her sob, intermittently, I was desperate.I. ..and it all adds up; like it has for you! You set your mind and heart to this lifestyle, and you've stayed true to it ever since. Don't think too far ahead. Just one day at a time. Like last night, or at any point, if you feel frustrated, or agitated, stop and take some time and watch some porn, or, even better, set aside a few moments and have a nice, enjoyable session of self-release! Treat yourself to that as much and as often as you want! That's the other significant component to remaining. And then you reach your goal ... War. It's about time, you think; now you can die and still be a man. What a lie you tell your self.Then the fun starts...Walking through the jungle doing the things the Powers That Be want done doesn't bother you. Sleeping in rain, sweat and fear doesn't either; you've done that all your life. Then comes the sweet sound of Dustoff and your life changes forever. You watch detached as the bird gets shot to shit and you're firing and firing and then your bleeding.