It was one of the reasons he had even considered this surrogate pregnancy. Her calm persisted through the ups an downs of the IVF procedures, and as h...r belly grew and grew with his and Ellia’s children her infinite serenity never wavered. Nothing seemed to bother her, not Ellia’s frequent visits or her daily phone calls, or even Micah’s dietary requests that he was vaguely aware were completely unreasonable. Today, as always, she seemed relaxed and in control. She kissed her husband goodnight. So the mere thought of my wife actually in the arms of this black man was incredible. I could not believe my ears.She continued as I began to slowly massage my swollen knob through my trousers.He began to slide his hands over my body, going from my waist and hips to my big assed butt. His large black hands, gently pulling me, closer to him, grinding his groin into mine. I did not resist his move. I was turned on by the prospect that I was about to let a black man do things to me, that I had. How long have you been here?” He asked.“I don’t know, maybe an hour,” I responded.“When you have finished your shower, get dressed and come downstairs. We need to talk,” He said.I continued to shower, dreading facing my father. My surprise visit home was turning into a nightmare. Finally, I screwed up enough courage, got out of the shower, dressed and headed downstairs. I knew facing my father would be the hardest thing I had ever done.“Anthony, how much did you hear?” He asked.“Hear, what do. " I thanked him and blushed a little."How's everything going?" Um." I fidgeted in my chair. "Adjusting has been a little difficult." Well that's why we have these sessions and you're dressing the way youare. It's to reinforce your new self. You wanted to go through with thisand I'm only here to help." I know. It's been hard. I still feel like 2 people. I might be fine oneday but my old life comes back and people easily see through me. It'shard for me to give up my past interests and move on. I.