I could tell the new 'crazy' Becky was coming out. We ran back to our room to change and grab a bottle of wine. We made out a little in the elevator, ...ut when we got back to the room, she wanted to change clothes quickly and get back to their room! Becky put on the same short, sexy summer dress she wore on the car ride, this time with no bra! She must have planned on fooling around with Tori... or Coop... or both maybe? I could barely wrap my head around my sweet Becky planning on getting in. ” She swallowed. I could tell just reliving it was having it's affect on her.“So then he leaned in and told you to stay that way,” I continued.Jill nodded, “Mmm hmm...and I know he was looking down my dress and seeing me...and I knew he was getting turned on.”“Are you excited right now? Thinking back to what happened next?”Jill nodded.“Unbutton your jeans,” I told her, trying to give a commanding presence.“What? Here in the car? What if a truck passes us?”“So what? It would give them a thrill,”. And I'm sorry I fell asleep on you." The last part came out before I could stop it. "And I know you said there was no chance and..." It trailed off softly into nothing.Crys was looking at me. Her eyes got bigger and bigger as I spoke. Through her wired closed jaw she said something, very quietly, that I couldn't hear. Then, louder, "You don't have anything to apologize for James. It's just a shopping list. I'll tell you what to buy." That was it. Not one word about my profession of love. I felt. Just a cheap, miserable, depraved slut who would not say no to any man.”A couple of times as she was talking I had started to say something, or reach out to her, but each time Carrie told me to just sit down, shut up and not say anything until she had finished.In the last few months Carrie said she finally realized how futile her efforts were to “fuck me out of her heart,” so she had stopped sleeping around.“Last night, I was about to suggest you call my father. Calling my father and knowing my.