There was a part of me that tried to justify what I was doing and why. Over time though I stopped fooling myself.If I'm honest with myself, I got into...it simply for the attention and to be desired. I'm not being overly critical of myself, just honest, when I say I'm a very plain looking person. Nothing wrong with it, simply the way some of us are. The spots I went to were visited by either gay men or straight/bi men. The gay men of course had no interest in me. The bi men though, many of them. So ... what would you prefer?Oh, nothing. It's alright. I really should relax.You should. Take a bath!Later. But anyway, you didn't really answer.Of course I do. Didn't I before?Did you?Of course I did. You helped me.Yeah, but that was before ... you know, when I was a virgin.And ... you think I stopped after that?Didn't you?Hell no!Oh.I did it a lot less, but you weren't always around, you know. And sometimes, well a man just wants to take care of things.Yeah, David said that. I never knew,. Oh, man, I feel like shit. “I just don’t understand.” She says, over and over. I could explain it to her, make her understand. But the truth isn’t mine alone, so all I can manage is, “I’m sorry.”And truly, I am.She asks to stay the night and after everything I’ve done to her, I can’t deny her. She sleeps in one of my old t-shirts, as I lie stiffly next to her. I don’t know how to comfort a person when I am the very thing that’s hurting them. I sleep badly, woken every now and then by the. I wasn't sure how much I was goingto be wearing clothes, because from what she had said, it seemed like youwere dancing naked a lot of the time, and then having sex. Just thinkingabout it made me horny. After I had felt the dildo in my pussy, I neededto feel what a real guy would be like. While I was thinking about havingsex with Liz. I'm not gay, so I would be totally into some hot lesbiansex with her. Hopefully she is bisexual.When I got home I took off my uniform, letting the girls out."You.