”“Lou Ann has a big crush on you, Josey. She’d lie to God on your behalf, just to smell your sweat. She’s told me some shit about you that’s...going around school – among all the girls that is. She swears she knows for a fact it’s true. I don’t even need to be talking to you about shit like this, but I’m intrigued by what she told me. You’re fifteen, and here I am twenty-nine, talking shit like a teenager again...“The reason I asked about Miss Early, I mean your Granny, is — I’ve decided to. ,,,Kal mera exam dopaher 2 baje khatam hone wala tha mere mom ne mere sare kapde meera ke ghar pohuncha diye the, muze bas unke ghar jana tha,,,2:30 baje mai unke ghar pohuncha to dekha ki uncle apne jute pahen rahe the, aur sath me unki beti bhi tayyar ho rahi thi, maine bola ‘uncle aap kaha ja rahe ho?’ uncle bole ki ‘beta muze balaji temple (tirupati) jana hai’ maine kaha ‘ohhhh, aap kab vapas aaoge?’ vo bole 5/6 din to lagenge hi ‘ uncle muze dekh kar bahut khush the, kunki unko station. I had control. I had dominance. They had status by virtue of the connection."It made me pathologically selfish. I saw everything and everyone in terms of what was in it for me. I barely recognized there was another side to the equation. And, to take a page from your ubiquitous math analogies, the equation was always an inequality - Ashley is greater than whomever."It denied me the ability to appreciate almost everything. I had almost everything I wanted. I could do whatever I wanted. I could. Tia and O'Kei hugged each other almost knocking each other out of their saddles. Erika said she was next as she moved to the other side of O'Kei to get her hug.Ken-Gi and I just shrugged our shoulders and smiled as we all rode toward my ranch. The following evening we were at my ranch. Ken-Gi and I had just returned from scouting around the ranch. We both were still worried about the Yakuza searching for him and his sister.The girls had just finished making dinner and Erika stepped outside to.