" I sayAnd that is when Jennifer opened the door to her building, finding me holding a crying women on her door steps."Oh my god, Idin whats happened?...Whats going on?" She saysLillian pulls herself together rather quickly, she wipes her eyes with the tissue, before I can say anything she reaches out an shakes Jennifer's hand."Hi I am Lillian, I went to college with Idin, I just lost my husband and I came by to talk to Idin, he offered me to come along with you two, I hope I am not imposing.". I don't know if the suit I wore to wrestle is OK or not, but I have the opportunity to take two Sig garments, and I plan to do it. If I can't find something now being worn by Sigs, then I can look into the clean suit box or as a last resort, take something worn by a Delt, but that won't make me popular amongst my sorority sisters. Then Marie draws the name of a guy to remove the garments for me. Some of the girls put the garments they wrestled in back on. That minimized the time they stood. And I was so happy they weregone, and then when I woke up and realized it was a dream, I was superconflicted about it, because my first reaction was to be sad that itwas all a dream, and then I wondered what that said about me, and I feltguilty and hated myself for yet another reason for a while there, untilI found out that being transgender was a thing, and that I was probablytransgender. And there were some other dreams where I was just a girl,doing normal stuff like going to school or. Kyle had raped her twice more during the night and she had hardly slept a wink. Rape was probably the best descriptor for although she offered no resistance she was now convinced that Kyle was simply doing what his father had done, taking what he wanted with no regard for her feelings at all. There was not a shred of what had passed between her and her son those seven years ago. No love, not even affection, Kyle was here to avenge what he felt she had done to him, that and take what he.