She is about the only person ever in my life outside of course of dawg and witchy and little momma, who all truly care about me and still have and do ...ven now.People out in this world are cruel and cold hearted as hell. They see someone like me and to make their fucked up world and life better pounce on my mental abilities and my looks. Nothing for you readers to concern yourselves with in the least. I am just as cold and cruel to them as they are to me.Patti just stayed right there and still. I never felt angry at him. I couldn’t. Besides, there was something wonderfully lonesome about wandering the city at night. Everything was darker, edgier, scarier. It made my heart race and my palms sweat. It was almost like being behind the scenes of a movie set.You saw things you didn’t see otherwise. Like drug deals. Like drunk bankers. Like the girl under the Mayor Bridge. Too young to be there. Headlights of kerb-crawlers reflected in her Disney-eyes. A wall of attitude. How do you help. " You always say that to me. How can you be any more sure of that now than before?"Sirinna thought that an odd comment to make and was momentarily nonplussed. "I guess I don't understand." I'm doing well only because I have a goal. I want to get through this Presenting. When that's done, what will motivate me then?"Sirinna had no immediate answer for that. It distressed her to think that Amanda would somehow backslide just because the Conclave had come and gone. She had not wanted to think too. ‘In fact, now I want you to do a shoot with him and Siobhan. I’ll be disappointed if I don’t see pictures of that! Xx,’ He followed up.‘You really want me to do a shoot with both of them? You mean a set with her then one with him? Xx,’ She texted back, trying to clarify what he meant.‘If you want to, then yeah, defo. Why not shoot with them individually? Then with all of you. I’d love to see that. Xx,’ He texted back.‘To be clear, you want me to have sex with both of them individually, then.