" I've asked myself that as I tried to sleep in Cheryl's bed the last two nights. Lately, when he's in me, I feel more frustration than stimulation. I...keep thinking about what he won't let me have. I guess I would be better off without that." I just need to be sure you are ready for what's ahead of you if you separate. You don't have another man waiting for you, and it's not that easy to find another partner." I can hardly believe I saying this, Julia, but I'm at the place where I won't demand. "Fooling around with old friends." "Aren't we old friends?" I asked." I mean old friends as in friends before swinging," she said."I know," I said. "Just teasing."I said Jessica and I would be only too happy to help Hannah out in her time of need — compassionate souls that we both are, Jess nodding her head emphatically as I did so. Jess and I had talked about Hannah. You know the dirty kind of talk, taking turns to describe to each other what we would like to do to her if either of us ever. “What I exclaimed last night is true. But I want you all to understand that what happened last night is not normal for me. I have never just jumped into bed with someone I just met, much less to do it in front of the rest of you. Anything you might have seen before was when I thought I had privacy.” They were glancing at one another with excited looks. I continued, “I don’t know how this is going to happen. It will have to evolve with patience … I can’t believe I am saying this … as I bring. We talked with them for a while and had a few more margaritas. I started flirting a little more with Nathan and before I knew it he had his hand on my leg under the table. I told Barbara I was going to the ladies room and she joined me; once in there she asked me what the hell was I doing, flirting with these unknown black men.I asked her “Have you ever fucked a black man, honey?”. She was horrified and told me: “No”I confessed her I had been with many black men, all of them well endowed and.