So here I am traveling the world repairing security systems. I was always on the road from airports to government and military installations. Three fa...led marriages and four kids who didn't know or care where I was because they never saw me anyway lay behind me. Perhaps that was part of the reason that I was a freaking walking heart attack. I had ceased to give a shit about myself years ago. I smoked like a freight train, drank like a fish, and lived on fast food. In short, my life sucked. Pitching-wise, I didn't lose a game and had 2 no-hitters, plus I led our Division in hitting, despite the fact I didn't hit any home runs. I had been hoping my power might come along if my pitching couldn't get me through. The Coach and the South Carolina people told me not to worry, it was the athleticism I had that they could develop. I didn't want to tell them that if I could pitch, and pitch well, I didn't care if I ever hit. Between my Dad, a couple of local ex-pro's, and Baseball camp I. Lillian had me use small breast pads in a small cup bra, sothat I had an A-cup type bust line. She also prodded me into wearing someof the more feminine blazers, like the coral one, and a pair of suedeshort boots with an inch-high heel. Of course, I had to use the matchinghandbag. Ashleigh pushed me further too, plucking my brows a bit more,which required using an eyebrow pencil to define the shape as well aswearing a light lip gloss and clear nail polish. Stacy said it was time Ilet everyone. I stared at her with my mouth wide open. "Well come on I don't have all night." I took off my pajamas and slid down my underwear. She said, "Oh my god, when did you grow that magnificent cock!" "Mommy, why are you making it grow; that's the whole problem." "Jonnie has this ever happened before?" " Yes" "And what happen, what did you do?" "Nothing, I just laid in bed and it got smaller again after awhile. I was scared" Honey, there's nothing to be scared of. That's your body telling you that.