"Harrison said You will regret this. Saying those words was a waste ofhis breath. It was like his mom did not care how her using that namehurt him. ...Then thinking of how she put him in a dress made him thinkthat his mom did not really care about his feeling if she was not happywith his actions. Right then was the last time he ever utter thosewords thinking that they might make his mom change her mind.************The next two years Harrison's mom and sister took every chance they hadto not. . damn!”“Are you two giving me permission to mess around with Carla if the opportunity presented herself on this retreat?” Lily asked.“Only if you describe what happens in lurid detail when you come home,” Bruce said. “I might have to have a smoke afterward.”“You smoke and you’ll be living in your office,” I said. Bruce didn’t smoke, but I didn’t get that he was making a joke until after I’d sounded like a cat.“You’d rather have me smelling of someone else’s pussy than Bruce smelling of smoke?”. " I timed that statement when both were sipping their lemonade. The results were predictable. There were a lot of choking and spluttering sounds.Dollars said, "That wasn't fair!" All's fair in love and war."Teresa asked, "Which is this for you two?" It's undecided right now. I have hopes for the former though." That will be interesting." That term has been used around us a lot lately."Dollars chuckled. "True, with varying results."We enjoyed the remainder of the evening and I eventually left. Maybe if I had wanted love, I could have seen a way to have Joey. I didn't and I couldn't and no irrational, hysterical emotional breakdown in the middle of the night could change that.Pharaoh, however, seemed to love me as much as anyone could. It was time for me to grow up, accept reality and let go of this foolish image of a love that did not exist. Pharaoh was here, now. Joey was over. Pharaoh was as close to love as I could get. That would have to be enough. I could not afford to open my.