But I was deeply offended by her acting of building an LOC in the bed.“It’s not like I was going to roll over and make you pregnant.” I wanted t... say out loud. Although it started as a comment what followed was a chain of thoughts. I imagined how my life would be raising a baby who is my child and the grandchild at the same time.It was a struggle that took some time to escape. By the time I was out of it, bahu was fast asleep.Crossing the LOC I sat straight staring at her. She was sleeping in. Her hair was slicked back tight into a ponytail, she had large hooped earrings in and too much make up but despite that she had a pretty face. She was wearing a large white puffer jacket, tracksuit bottoms and boots but I knew there was a tidy little body underneath.The second girl was blonde and quite short. She wore trainers, leggings and a jumper. It was pretty cold out and almost felt sorry for her. She wasn't an ugly girl but she didn't do anything for me at all.When I stood in the bus. This skin is fresh, alive, as if it had just been torn from a living animal. I wince from the pressure in my intestines. My whole body is vibrating. Something is wiggling vigorously along my digestive tract. It's sliding deeper into me. I'm sure of it!I look up and see Grace calmly kneeling near me, smiling and not saying anything. That makes no sense. Pushing that thought aside, I force my heavy arm and hand to return to my anus. Fuck! It's enormous! I'm so open I could probably pop my hand. ‘I’d love to do that.’ ‘Mikey, I know this may be too early, but have you decided if you’re leaving him?’ Tears rolled down her cheeks. ‘I already have.’ ‘Then I’m sorry to be a pain, but there are a few things you need to do.’ She looked at him in surprise. ‘If you have joint accounts or joint savings, then you need to take half the balance out before he realises and makes it difficult. Jo can arrange to have your salary moved to your own account straight away. That way you’ll still have.