The next two hours were a frenzy of trying to erase what my pathetic life had become. I deleted all my porn which I had so lovingly curated. I felt as...amed and disgusted of myself, maybe if I really tried I could satisfy Sarah and become a man again? Maybe if I told her how sorry I was she would accept me back and we could try to live a normal life?I spent the rest of the day hating myself and regretting what I had done.The next day I woke up determined to re-establish my previous life. I. “We know you are ISIL supporters, give yourselves up.”Hands rose and as one the first and last in line exploded. Then another and another.Heads and shoulders flying skywards. Feet and legs standing for a few seconds. Looks of utter disbelief from the men as their friends exploded.Big Ben showed 2.05. A Transit van stopped. A squad of men emerged. Biological suits. A refuse truck stopped. Body parts thrown in, everything except the heads which were put in bin liners and thrown in the back of the. ‘To your brother? By the Gods Bruni!! To your brother!!’ She was pacing now, angry tears threatening to spill as she replayed Bruni’s confession. She was trapped again, she was not going home to a family she never knew, she was going to a foreign land to be a wife to a man she had never met. The same damned prison, albeit made with different bars, Eleanor thought, shaking with her rage. ‘What would you have done Bruni, if Kate and Ragnar had not been in the room?’ Eleanor stopped her pacing,. So the preacher repeated the question in an even sterner tone, “Where is God?! Again, the boy made no attempt to answer.The preacher raised his voice even more and shook his finger in the boy’s face and bellowed, “WHERE IS GOD?!”The boy screamed & bolted from the room, Ran directly home & dove into his closet, slamming the door behind him.When his older brother found him in the closet, He asked, “What happened?”The younger brother, gasping for breath, replied, “We are in BIG trouble this time!”.