The need to dress was far too strong to stop, I had made promises to myself and failed them all eventually. The feeling of guilt often made me withdra...n, and the fear of discovery made me tense. The only time I really felt great was fantasizing about or being dressed. The excitement, adventure and release had me preoccupied most days of the week and I couldn't stop. Time went by and at the age of fourteen I began to experiment with some more of my mother's clothes, they all fitted well, her. Aunty paarka kama thevathai pola irunthaal, avalai pudavaiyil paarkum pozhuthu avalaku sexiyaaga irunthaal.Naan ulle sendren, aunty ezhuthu sendru kathavai thapal potal. En arugil vanthu amarnthu en kaiyai pidithu en en idam maraikiraai endru pasamaaga ketal? Aval kai en meethu padum pozhuthe moodu era aarambithathu. En arugil vanthu ithazhil kiss koduthaal, naan mayangi viten. Aunty en kaiyai pidithu vaa padukai araiku selalam endru azhaithu sendraal.Aunty pudvaiyai kayatinaal, iru mulaiyum. “Did your friend buy it for you? Does he live around here?” Sasha’s mind was a whir, the rose being a symbol striking a chord with her, but she couldn’t quite place it. “No, unfortunately, the one from him got misplaced in one of my moves in America long before I went to China. Do your earrings have meaning?” Jolene took a big swig of her wine. “Oh, my boyfriend said there were two reasons for them, firstly to show support for the English Rugby Teams and the second because...” She stopped as. Thenthere were breast forms to think about.After lunch Kate started training me, how to walk, smile, how to sit,how to get in a car."No keep your legs together. Don't cross your legs like that, if youwant, cross your ankles. Don't get in the car like that. Your supposedthe be graceful and ladylike."She even made me practice going to the toilet, as if I was using apublic one."No, it's a public toilet, you don't sit, you hover. You'll understandwhy in time. No, two small pieces of toilet paper.