" And"this is not happening." I raised my head to try to explain but could not find the words. Ienvisioned a nasty divorce, public humiliation and sev...re damage to mycareer. I had a picture in my head of me living in a dilapidatedapartment drunk and lonely for the rest of my days.My wife then gained her composure and just stared. I was just about tospeak when she placed her finger on her lips and said "shhhhhhh." Sheordered me to stand up and come from around the desk. I maneuvered aroundthe. It would need delicate handling...”It took Grandpa a little while to convince himself, then suddenly came out with: “This is a good idea. I’ll get it started.”Somehow I thought there would be more fanfare, but ‘I’ll get it started’ was all I got. It might make a difference to people further down the line, but for now, it was just a two-minute conversation that I could now forget about for years.When September arrived a feeling of dread came with it, as I would be starting a new school. Not only. ''Ich blickte ihn an . ''Nein , überhaupt nicht .''Er nickte . ''Du weißt nicht ob du zu deinem Mann zurück willst .''Ich zuckte nur die Schultern , trank ein Schlückchen .''Aber du weißt genauso wenig wohin du sonst kannst , du bist abhängig von Ben Sassen .''Ich seufzte , dachte über die Worte nach . Abhängig . Ich hatte nichts , nur meine paar eigenen Klamotten . Keinen Job , keine eigene Wohnung . Kein Geld , kein Auto . Ich besaß nicht viel mehr als was ich hier in meiner Tasche hatte .. . After about 6 months of my playing with her arse hole, we had got to the stage where we were having anal sex all the time, and I was fisting her arse a lot and she said 'I love the feeling I get when you shoot your cum up my arse and then shove your fist right up my arse too and then move it around with all your cum up there too' and I told her 'I could make those feelings even stronger' and she did not even ask me how but just said 'Ok go for it' and the next morning we went to a sex aid.