"How early," he asked?"How about by the end of the year, I responded? You're going to be fifty three years old, you've worked hard all you life and yo...'ve had to worry about always making ends meet. Jack and I make more than enough money to put a roof over our heads, food in our mouths, put away money for retirement, with a little left over for extras.Jack and I have each set up a self directed individual retirement account with our broker. This year I want you to do the same. I have over ten. " He gestured to my situation "Did you hear all of that?"I nodded my head and bit my bottom lip. "I see...well..." He cleared his throat and sat down in his chair. "I..i'm a grown man and well, I can enjoy myself..."I was a little afraid he was going to give me a birds and bees lecture so I made quickly for the door. "Yeah...yeah, Dad. I know. and well, yeah, it's okay." and so with my pants still undone I quickly left the office.I went to my room kind of embarassed but also still quite turned. I was sure she was going to leave me, and the humiliation and jealousy hit me like a wave. Then, she told me that she loved me more and anything and begged me to forgive her. I couldn’t believe my ears. I was so relieved. I her and I kissed her tear-soaked face and told her that I didn’t want to lose her and that we’d get through this. Just then I realised how turned on I was by the thought of her fucking him behind my back “Jesus, you’re a sick fuck” I thought to myself. After a couple of. It was as if some invisible barrier came down in his mind whenever he tried to see beyond the limits imposed upon him. He couldn't even remember what any of the farms looked like now, and he couldn't seem to form a picture of anything else outside town. As with everything else, none of this seemed to touch him emotionally.Whenever a contradiction was blatant, a momentary burst of panic would shoot up his spine. Dee and himself had once had neighbours, he knew that, all the houses in their.