"So, what disadvantage do you see for the Brujo?" Pappy asked coldly. His scowl showed barely controlled anger but his voice raised that anger to near...y a white hot rage. He wasn't mad at BB. Pappy was reliving the most traumatic time of his life but there was a difference this time. He wasn't a helpless boy. He would protect his family this time.Martha shivered at the sound of his voice and recognized what Pappy was experiencing. She lay on hand on Pappy's arm to calm him.BB took a breath and. That’s what I told myself as I pondered how to undo what I’ve done. I sat in front of my computer and wrote a letter. I wanted Steve to understand exactly who I was and what I went through. I wanted him to know how much I loved him, and how I’d die before hurting him. I wanted him to understand the darkness I carried inside of me. All the anger I felt at being constantly belittled, humiliated and mistreated simply due to my skin color and national origin by the wealthy White couple which. Pam eventually went back to bed, and Sue had to go in to her office for a little while. I just stayed off of my feet and watched TV. Amy called and checked in - she wanted to make sure I was wearing my heels per our little wager. I told her I was, and she said if I was caught not wearing them during the period of our bet, then I would lose! After I got off of the phone with her, I got up to go look again at the "contract" she drew up for our wager. I was beginning to think that maybe I would. Although her dad did help her out with some of the payments.I said that's so awesome that you studied and worked hard to get where you are. She had moved down to my lower back and I could feel I had started to relax. Her hands then ran over my bum as she massaged each of my cheeks before moving down my thighs and legs. We stopped talking and I laid there enjoying the massage. She soon finished with my feet and then moved up to my head. She massaged my temples and the back of my head, totally.