But I tried to treat the situation as totally temporary, the height of denial. I was going to have to leave behind my girls, my loves, do it with my v...rginity intact.Linda was distraught about the idea of me going to war. Siza was very unhappy but in her own way she knew how to do denial just as well as I. She refused to let herself accept my leaving as anything but ordinary. It was like I was just going to be gone for a month or so.My grief was just piling up. There would no more fun, or. "I was restrained from moving from the seat. She reviewed the cuffs on mywrists, my arms partially crossed."Miss Catherine why can't I sleep?"She was satisfied. "Quiet or I'll have to gag you."Finally she placed a black cloth over my eyes. The chair's pad slightlylifted my bottom off the chair's seat."Stay very still and speak to no one, please Annabelle."Due to the cloth over my eyes the sound of Catherine's heels as she leftthe hall was how I knew I was alone.I sat for some time and due to. Your immediate reaction is to spit it back out, but I am holding it firmly in place and you can feel me slipping some rubber over your head to keep the ball gag in place. Don't want to scare the neighbours, my voice mischievous as I step away from the bed. I've only taken a pace back when the woman slams the metal studded paddle in your ass and cunt. The pain sears through you, making you feel like every nerve is on fire, a crippling heat, the epicentre of which is your ass. You can't help. Tra la! It's here!That shocking time of yearWhen tons of wicked little thoughtsMerrily appear!It was about ten in the morning and the dew had been burned off when I walked barefoot into the meadow to celebrate the Sabbat. It was May 1st - May Day, or Beltane, and truth to say, I should have been here in time to see the sun come up; but I’m a lazy bastard, and only the fact that getting dressed had been such a simple affair had kept me from being later still. I wore nothing more than a.