Its nothing to apologize for, and definitely nothing to get upset about." it didnt help though. he put his hands in his face, and almost looked like h... was about to cry. "everything has been so tough with julie leaving... i just... i dont know... i... " i stopped him short, and stressed it to him again that it was no big deal and not to worry about it. i could tell it wasnt helping. so, i swallowed my pride, and decided to come clean myself. "look brian... those panties dont belong to who you. " Look, don't judge me. You know that I am very happy for you and your husband but damn, I am tired of not only being alone shit I am tired of not getting laid. Do you know it has been seven years since I have been with a man!?" I know but you must have faith!" Well I said a big fuck you to faith that night and I followed those guys to the hotel room. They were actually cool guys and it wasn't like I headed out the door that evening and said 'hey why don't I be a big ol' cum bucket tonight.'. Time for the classics. She reached for My Bloody Valentine's "Loveless", "TNT" by Tortoise, and Sunny Day Real Estate's "Diary" and loaded them all into her 3-CD changer. All excellent for either passive or active listening, but not distractingly repetitive and ambient. "Music for Airports" would wait for another day.The doorbell rang. Kazuri pushed play, gathered her wits, and ran towards the door. She thrust it open and was greeted by the three mouths of her friends, all agape."What the hell. And I went to work and saw what he did and how much he loved it, and how people acted around him, and I want to be like that. And this college thing? Can I be an engineer by the time I'm nineteen? Dan thinks I can. So if Dan thinks so, then I think so. Because it's not just me and Dan. It's us." She turned to me. "Right, babe?" Right, love!"And she kissed me.Tootie said, "huh! Well I'm not going to say another damned thing! He's yours, and you're part of our family. Forever. HE can go. YOU.