The following day I was back on the beach with my new wife to share my breaks. Money was tight the first five years with anything extra going either t... pay for graduate school at night or the down payment on our first house. We moved in when we had been married five and a half years. We both had master’s degrees which helped financially especially two years later when our first child was born. Lizzie stayed home to care for our children and there was no doubt that we were completely in love. We. "That poor baby. And Arlene." Tears streamed from both eyes. "And then he used the knife on himself ..." You don't have to go on," I said."I drove up to Arlene and Eddie's place just as the police broke down the door. They made me go inside so they could figure out what happened. There was so much blood! Later, at the funerals, everyone stared at me like I had some horrible contagious disease."Ever since then, I seem to cry all the time. I can't help it. The littlest things will set me off. One. Two weeks before graduation, a mere week after my 18th birthday, I started feeling bored with my usual display. I had gotten a few dates but none of the boys in my grade seemed mature enough sexually for my taste. Just as I was starting to lose hope, I walked into 5th hour English only to be greeted by a tall man in black slacks, blue dress shirt and a navy tie. He had dark wavy hair and eyes that matched his shirt. He couldn’t have been over 25 but had muscles that placed him out of the high. Truth be told, I kind of liked it, so I kissed him back,” Tonya replied. “Wow, shit Tonya, I had no idea, then you decided to have sex?” I asked. “Well, I guess after making out for a few minutes just gave us both the courage to admit we wanted it, we didn't even get all the way naked, we both pulled our pants and underwear down just about halfway down and I was on the pill, so I didn't worry about a condom. So then he stuck it in as we were on the couch. Honestly it was beyond amazing, we had.