Father – I should have taught you well. The blade needs to be held diagonally against your skin, and then it should be scratched against your skin.M... – I did as you showed me. But I think I have not put the right force at it.Father – Ok dear, the lotion won’t be effective if we don’t clear it. Would you mind if I shave it?A tingle started deep inside my heart. I wanted his fingers again on my skin, but I was feeling shy to show it to him. I knew he had to see it. If not then, he should see it. And.....gay."Reginald stood up from his expensive leather chair and shouted, "Andwhat if it does make you feel GAY??? Dear God Natalie, you may havemarried a man but you are shockingly homophobic."I didn't know how to answer his accusation, was it homophobic to notwant strange men touching my ass all night? I could accept that I was apretty girl named Natalie, but I only used that girl identity to justifymy marriage to Reginald. I realized that in spite of the fact that Ilooked like a girl in. ‘Now you’ll be able to show me around your village,’ she said. ‘It’s not much fun being by yourself in a strange place,’ she sighed. When we parted that evening she let me kiss her and her skin was warm and dry. And that was the first girl I ever kissed, excepting my sister and my cousin, who didn’t count, them being relations. So the next morning I swallowed my breakfast quick and was out of the house before my mom could dream up anything to keep me busy. When I reached the stile she was there. I had earlier dropped mild and vague hints about the threesome I had with Raj and Neena. I wanted her to be ready to hear the truth so that we do not have an explosive situation. At the same time, I did not want to hide this from Anita. Since she promised me that she will not shout even if I had done something highly unethical, I realized that she was now ready to hear the truth and that in all likely hood she already had guessed what might have happened on the night of Holi. I knew that I had.