You always acted girlish andhad no interest in football, baseball and other manly pursuits. You alsowere a failure at picking up girls. I was deeply...ashamed by your unmanlybehavior. So I decided you would be my first experiment in my new order.I want to go back to when men were men and were the heads of thehousehold. If a man cannot live up to that then he has a choice to besomewhat manly and be considered a gay bottom. If he can't make that cutthen he will become a woman, legally as well. I got up I recollect next day ashamed of myself, and felt worse, when he remarked, “What beasts we made ourselves last night.” What changes since then. Two of the five found graves in the Crimea, the third is dead also; Henry and I alone alive. He with a big family, with sons nearly as old as he was at the time of the frigging matches. I wonder if he ever thinks of them, wonder if he ever has told his wife.I spent much time now in this leg inspection and frigging myself, till I could scarcely. So I told her that I’m ready to pee again and that I need her help to relieve myself. I have to admit it, she got the guts. She dared me to do it in the bus if I have the guts. I turned around and saw that everyone’s sleeping. So I pulled her towards me and started kissing her to which she responded very well. Next, I opened the buttons of her blouse and to my surprise again, she was not wearing a bra. She had a good sized boob which is not very big or should I say large but big enough and I. Not once did I ever look at her and see anything but beauty, though. If anything, the maturity made her even more beautiful. Some evenings I would sit resting from my day’s labors and watch her. We could sit for hours just holding each other and talking about all that was going on, and all that we needed to do. At night we always slept wrapped in each other’s arms. During the day if either of us had a need there was no cause to speak, we somehow knew. Then one Winter after Sarah turned 80 she.